Ended my 16km run with my entire body aching. Not sure if it's the beneficial muscle ache or the detrimental joint injuries. But well, I guess I'm gonna continue these PTs; At least it gets my mind off things, even if it's only for that 2 hour or so.

It's inevitable that I thought of some stuff when I was running. This is also the reason why I like running - It is my alone time where I am free of all worldly distractions.

I wanted to just pass on penning down my thoughts, but well, since I'm already here, why not.

1. The guy who leaves you because he loves you probably loves you more than the guy who loves you because he has you.
2. I kinda wished that I would get into an accident and pass away when running(driver's fault, so at least I won't seem like a fool), because sometimes life just seems too big for me to handle; Sometimes, I really want to give up.
3. We are similar in that we both need people to talk to when we are down. The difference is that you talk to real people but I talk to myself/my blog.
4. I cannot believe that I loved you so much that I even read about how to meet the needs of your partner and how to be a better boyfriend and what not. I am truly amazed by myself and concludes that love works in mysterious, yet amazing, ways. Truth be told, I wouldn't have even done that for my ex-girlfriend, or anyone else; Face it, we are both innately self-centred persons. But I tried to change so much so that you would be happy, because that is what would truly make me happy. All said, I wish one day you would put yourself behind and step forth and commit to love another; It is easy to sit on the fence and wait for things to happen, but that would just be plain selfish. And I hope that your another would love you back in the same way, because that is the only way a relationship can last through a lifetime.
5. The first thing I check when I get to my phone(constantly, in fact) is if there are any texts/calls from this number - 9855 8565. I just can't take my mind off you, and I hate that. ):

I am so tired, literally and figuratively. I wanna lie in your arms and just fall asleep, and never leave your embrace.

It's been three days.