Feelings

i realised how closely linked i am to the situation in the show. like them, i always treated what you did for me as something you have to do, something you're expected to do. basically, it's like a minimum requirement. but what i haven't realised is the fact that in life, everyone's an individual. nobody owes anyone else a living. even your closest ones. but why are we so unappreciative of them?

personally, i feel that this is because many people treats what others do for them as a norm, which is, it's only normal that they do it. (I.E when you're hurt, you expected your family members to understand your situation and comfort you, or maybe your spouse as well) but like i've said, everyone's an individual. just because they're doing it for you, dont mean that you can take it for granted.

another issue i've associated with this is the fact that most people feels that friends are closer to them than their family. Basically, i've rooted the this situation to the fact that your friends are NOT EXPECTED to do anything for you. and when they do, you're touched, because they did something beyond your expectation.(after all, one feels glad/happy because things happen beyond their expectation) however, because you treat what your family and spouse do for you as what they're expected to do, you feel as though they're just doing what they're supposed to do. and often, when things take a little turn, they're the ones to get blamed for not doing it well.

i would like to apologize to my girlfriend for always venting my anger on you. and after i found out the reality of life, i promise that i'll treat you better in the future, that i'll appreciate all your little efforts to brighten up my day.(I.E she bought me pens after she realised that the only blue pen i have in my pencil box is a 5cm one)
i would also apologize to my family for the things i've done to make them angry, even though most of the times i did it on purpose.(i'm nt a stupid boy that dont even know that i've made someone angry) However, i really hope that you'll not interfere with anything related to my studies, because i know very well the direction im heading and i even better, the effort i've to put in. so, if you read this, i hope you do try to do so.

also, many a times, because we're too used to the love we're getting, we don't acknowledge them. think about it. how many times have you told your family you love them this year. how many times, have you even told your friends how much they mean to you. also, the reason why we don't voice out how we feel is because of the fear of rejection. the truth is, the reason why you don't tell your friends how much they mean to you, and your family, how much you love them is because you're afraid that instead of appreciating what you said, they'll show their nasty side and tell the whole world about what you said. conformity may be good in putting you in a safe position, but individualism is the trait that will differ you from everyone else, that will make you a more special person than anyone else in the society. so take your stand, would you be an individual, or a conformist?

to all my friends out there and my family, i love all of you.
and to my beloved MJC FLOORBALL TEAM 2008, i really do cherish the time we spend together.

basically, this is how i feel about life. anyone is free to challenge my views, but please provide only constructive challenges/ comments