I was just thinking of the times when we were together.

I guess I should first appreciate you for what you have done for me, even though I it's already too late. Life is always about perceptions, it's about how we see things. Thank you for always making me see things out of my wayward and selfish mentality. But I guess I was really just too selfish too see all these back then.

And I would also like to apologize. But I'm not going to all list down all the things which I am apologetic for because I guess the list is pretty much inexhaustible, but here goes.

I'm sorry for taking you for granted. You were always there when I needed you, but I guess that's the problem, I got so used to it and caught up with it that I took it for granted. I forgot to appreciate you.

I'm sorry for misplacing the love you held for me. I guess, one of the most emotionally hurtful thing is being hurt by the one we love so dearly.

I'm sorry for being not committed to our relationship. At that phase of my life, I prioritized my friends and many other things before you. I am sure you would have felt hurt at one point or another, but you always kept it to yourself to make me happier.

There is really no way I can ever make it up for you, so I'm just going to say that I'm sorry. In some sense, I am happy that our relationship ended. You deserve much better, way way better than the me in the past. I sincerely hope that you are doing fine wherever you are. You're a strong girl, keep it that way.

P.S. I would have preferred to send you a message rather than writing it here, but I just cannot find anyway to reach you directly, so this is my best bet. I hope you'll somehow stumble upon this.

With much love, thanks and regrets,
Di Qiang