They say the 'worst' way to treat a person is indifference. But I'm not even going to do that. I care, of course I do. I cared so much to put in too much, so much for me to feel so hurt.

I am just very disappointed. You said, you are tired of doing all this. Maybe that should be my line instead. On hindsight, I feel silly.

But these doesn't matter, and I don't want to dwell on it any more. Right or wrong, good or bad, we learn. Yes, it hurts, but time will make all better.

And it's true. With all these, we are 'living in the past'. We should not live in the past. Experience shape us, memories we take away. Beautiful, ugly, good or bad. We can only learn so much from the past. What is going to matter now is the future, the future we build for ourselves. I don't want to live a life where I want to live a life I wanted to live in the past. I want to live a life I want to live now.

And I believe the only way people can work towards a future that they want is by letting go of the past. No, not forget and ignore. But to remember, understand, experience and feel it all, things so close to the heart, yet being able to put them all down and re-set the direction we want to work towards. Creating a future that does not carry an essence of the past, but the glimpse of a dream.