To be honest, you don't have to worry about "Don't have to la, it's so early." and stuff. Nobody really tells me what I should or should not do, and I always believed that it's the intention and 'out of convenience'/'making the exception' that matters more. I'm a master of my own plans and I plan everything to perfection. The difference is whether I want to execute them.

I was awake at 5am since, and I had the car. Problem is, I don't wanna go down anymore.

Maybe I should really just learn to let go, maybe I should have learnt that a long time ago. Feels like I'm doing this alone anyway. I guess the old saying is wise - We should not keep/hold on to if the heart ain't around anymore. I'll learn to distance myself from you.

I guess the simple fact is that you'll be happier off without me.

You not bringing my present over? Well, disappointed, definitely, but since you have made your decision, and I'm sure you have your own reasons.

What did I intend for the gift to achieve?

You'll definitely have some bad days, and feel like you can't talk to people around you because they are the problem or that somehow you just cannot talk to them. I intended it to cheer you up when that happens and I cannot be there (difference in time zone). At least you'll know that I'm always with you, and that you're not alone.

But I guess that's as far as intention go.