I thought I had found 'someone whose happiness mattered more than my own.'

And I did my best to love, to listen and to understand, because they say "love is not a feeling, it's a choice."

Maybe they were wrong. Maybe I was wrong. Such complexities of life, I cannot comprehend.

Much as I don't want to, I can't help but think how you're doing. Then again I believe you are doing well; You have friends that you can talk to, open up to. And you know it hurts so bad to just walk past you and act as though I did not see you... )':

I had the car last night, and I was so so so tempted to ask you out... Every night when I go to bed, I wish that you'll be there by my side when I wake up, that when I wake up all these would just be a dream...

But on a side note, I can't really believe myself that I did things so sweet for you. I'm amazed by myself. (:

Here's a song for you. It's on repeat on my com. Enjoy. (:

You know, after thinking about all the things grown-ups say and their reflections about relationship and rights and wrong, they all end up at one point - It's okay even if he/she was wrong, I should not have been too harsh and ended up with nothing. When you reach this point in your life, it starts to dawn on you that it does not matter whether something is right or wrong any more; all that matters is that he/she is right here beside me right now. 

(:

Random, but I have been editing posts to add in new information... What a weird act. =/